I’ve wanted to blog for a very long time and I’ve even started a few free blogs but they didn’t last. I imagine my experience is nothing new. I found a niche, started writing about, lost steam and carried on with the rest of my life. Looking back, I definitely had the time to create awesome posts and make something out of my writing but never got there.
What went wrong? What on earth am I thinking starting a “non-free” blog when my life is only going to get more hectic? Why didn’t my fear of failure kick in sooner and stop me? Well, I think my desire to discover my abilities outside of keeping a wee human alive had kicked in. Don’t get me wrong, I love my child immensely and I appreciate it is a full-time job involving both body and mind but I needed to find a “for me” activity and somehow fit it in. I ploughed myself into social media management for my church with a bit of graphics design mixed in. It did the job at first but posts scheduling can only provide so much fun. I went back to the drawing board and came up with other ideas such as online business or service but hold on anything online would need a blog right? The blocks appeared aligned:
(The last one would probably be clearer as “Opportunity” but that doesn’t start with an ‘M’ now does it?)
I was all set to begin or so I thought. What followed was months wasted in niche considerations, name deliberations and the like. The busyness was winning again as I had to prepare for returning to work etc. My mind got cluttered (or messy to follow the M theme) and let’s not mention the state of my house. Then my husband quietly announced that he was going to start his online venture. I started this blog the next day. Turns out, I just don’t like losing and it was my idea first!
I quickly drafted some posts so I didn’t start with nothing to entertain my future readers but I naively assumed that once I’d acquired the blog, the layout will magically transfer from my mind to the screen. I drafted in some help from hubby as there was no way my mind would focus enough to tweak html at 10pm.
It’s already taking over my every second. I love it but I’m conscious about not being 100% there in real life. Good thing I love learning as there’s a lot to get my head round about having a presence online. Will the motivation and passion last? Time will tell. In my case that’s 3 years going by my hosting duration.
In one of my ‘letter’ sessions, I came up with the three ‘A’s below to help me focus on what was important. This blog is the accountability part.
Appreciate – Love the positives in my life or more holistically, count my blessings!
Action – set a realistic but regular schedule to work towards my goals
Accountability – document progress (or lack of it) somewhere to focus my mind